Vicki's Daily Creation

October 11th, 2003

Goals for this month:

Daily creation - get back in the habit!

Food - Watch the sugar - cut down!

I didn't do so well on the goals for last month, so I think I'll use them for this month, too.

It's amazing how easy it is to fall out of the habit of posting every day. I started this blog, this "Daily Creation" project, just for myself, to help me learn about myself, for fun, and to share my journey. I've let it become kind of a nag - I don't know how else to explain it! Now that I know there are actually people out there who are reading this - it's like I'm trying to impress them, and that's not the point at all. While I'm totally thrilled that there ARE people who are interested in my personal struggles, and who care, I don't want to let it affect the things I do or write here.

When I get depressed, I JUST don't want to do anything. And then it's a few days later, and it's almost embarrassing that I haven't posted anything, so that keeps me away for a few more days, and then I don't even think about it. And pretty soon, it's a couple weeks later! Where does the time go? Anyway - time to get back to it! Wish me luck!

E-me! vstar3@aol.com

The Blessings Already Are,

Vicki Star

Codes: M - 1 through 10, Mood, where 1 is suicidal, and 10 is full of bliss and joy. C - 1 through 3, Cycle, where 1 is "regular" (for lack of a better word), 2 is feeling premenstrual, and 3 is actually bleeding. F - 1 through 7, Food, where 1 is junk food, sugar, and processed/cooked foods, and 7 is organic, raw, good for ya foods. V - Vitamins, where 0 is none, 1 is some, and 2 is all of them. E - 1 point for each half hour of exercise.

	10/11/03 OK - so I've had a major lapse! I've been really depressed, but I'm coming out of it now. I know sugar is a big factor, but when I get stressed, I eat more sugar, then I get depressed, which makes me more stressed, and pretty soon, I'm eating a whole bag of candy, and drinking 3 or 4 Pepsis every day. And then I get REALLY depressed.... It's a constant struggle! I made a set of Refrigerator magnets as a birthday gift for a friend yesterday, but I didn't get a picture, and I gave it to him already. I basically went through all my photos and printed out a select few on magnet sheet, then just cut them out. I put them in the tin that I made on 9/11, and voila! a personalized gift. M-3 C-0 F-5 V-1 E-0
	10/12/03 The women in my family (my 2 sisters, my mom, my daughter and I) went to Hollywood today to see the play “The Full Monty” at the Kodak Theatre. It was great! I liked the movie (It's a cute story), and I really liked the sets and the treatment of the play. We went to dinner afterwards, and had an altogether delightful time! I am blessed with a wonderful family. We spent almost 5 hours (I live in the San Diego area) in the car, so this counts as being out of town, and I didn't make anything today but laughter and fun. M-5 C-0 F-5 V-1 E-0
10/13/03 I got a new Origami book, called “Amazing Origami” by Kunihiko Kasahara, that's very mathematical and geometric. I folded this Vase out of Washi paper. My folds could stand to be a LOT more precise! M-4 C-0 F-4 V-1 E-1
	10/14/03 Today, I worked on the instructions for one of the classes I'm teaching this weekend... It's not finished yet - still needs some fine tuning, but they're putting a new roof on my apartment, and it's hard to concentrate when it sounds like the ceiling is caving in! M-4 C-0 F-5 V-1 E-0
	10/15/03 Here's the finished instructions for my Herringbone Curl class. M-4 C-0 F-4 V-1 E-1
10/16/03 My carry-on bead bag needed a bead charm... M-4 C-0 F-3 V-1 E-0
	10/17 through 10/19 I was in San Jose, teaching classes.... Had a good time, and was thoroughly spoiled. Thanks, Phyllis! And thanks to all my students, too. M-4 C-0 F-5 V-2 E-0
	10/20 Today, I visited my new grandson, Ronin Mars Bronsted. I'm such a lame grandma! I forgot my camera... Anyway, he's simply awesome! He looks a lot like my son. M-4 C-0 F-4 V-1 E-0
	10/21 Here's an Origami cube, made from 2 sheets of fancy paper. M-3 C-1 F-3 V-1 E-0